Today’s post is going to be a little different than my others. A little more serious and a little more personal…
I have been dealing with some jealousy lately and it really sucks. Just when I think I have conquered it, in moments of weakness, the emotions come rushing back in. The situation causing the jealousy is not something I can control. It isn’t like I can work harder or train physically. There is no cheating or besting anyone, either. It just is what it is and is not going to change. It is also not a situation I choose to walk away from, so I have to accept it.
I am a Christian and know that God has a plan. He has a plan for me and my life, as He does for others. While I know this intellectually, it is difficult in my heart to accept at times. As I said, there are just times that my own self-imposed hurt feelings creep back in and try to take over.
So what am I doing about it? Well, a couple of things. First, I have started reading Enemies of the Heart by Andy Stanley with several ladies at my church and am really looking forward to this study. I need to change my heart so this seems like a good place to start. As you all know, there is a lot of good information in books!
Secondly, I turn to Pinterest. Didn’t expect that answer, did you? I have an inspiration board where I pin positive quotes during these moments of insecurity that remind me of where I should focus my attention. One quote that has stood out to me lately is the one listed below.
This quote really hits home. God has blessed me so much that I feel I would be offending those that have been a part of the blessings bestowed upon me to dwell on someone else’s.
I also believe, in order to truly conquer something, I am probably going to have to face it several times to build up my powers against it. Hmm, now I am thinking like a superhero. Well, they do conquer all sorts of amazing things, right? I think I can handle that. Now I need a superhero name.
If you made it this far, thanks for listening and hope you find some awesome inspiration today! Do you have any favorite inspirational books I can add to my TBR pile or quotes I can add to my Pinterest board?
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